The 9 month pregnancy was rounding month 10 and I was ready to have this baby! ..A little demerol and the pushing began. Drew's heart rate dropped and wasn't coming back up between contractions. I could tell they were concerned. I had to get him out.
I love Christmas just as much as the next person but I also love purging my home of Christmas decor and giving it a fresh do over. The new year always symbolizes a time for me to reflect on the past year and all my accomplishments as well as my failures so that I can set new goals for the coming year.
Each summer we would travel to Maine and stay in a cabin right on the lake. The kids looked forward to fishing, canoeing, swimming and campfires. I looked forward to the serenity of it all.
Once Drew was diagnosed with schizophrenia I was finally able to understand and explain some of these occurrences however bizarre they were. It doesn't really make it easier to handle, but at least there was an explanation for it!
One question that I have encountered time and time again with all my children is how do we empower them? How do we take their struggles, their weaknesses and give them the tools to learn how to overcome?
My intentions in writing about Drew's story are not for sympathy but to shed light on Drew's illness. I started making candles to give us a way to start the conversation. A conversation that is hard to talk about, for me anyway.